Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Another night, another nightmare about GV8.

It's like my brain is giving me a high-five of suck.

I keep wanting to text or email him, see if he's just as bad off as I am. Connect.

But it's just hope disguising itself.

Gotta keep my head down and get through the day.

Gotta ignore my gut.


  1. Ouch. I know how that goes. <3
    One that sticks out in my mind, was one that had someone simply leaving - the emptiness I felt (other than the feeling of a bowling ball being lodged in the lower part of my chest), was the worst.

  2. You are so not alone in humanity for feeling that way.

  3. Angela,

    That's very much like what the dreams have been. Random situations where he totally denies any emotions, any memories of me. I'm worthless to him, he deserts me.


    I know. Wish that there was some Kumbaya circle I could join. Sing and feel better.

    Thanks for talking to me earlier today. Mellowed me out. :)